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Name: J-Whit
Location: Kankakee Bradley Bourbonnais, Illinois, United States
Gender: Male
Interests: I love to play soccer, hang out with my friends, talk to Girls and yea Girls, umm movies are awesome, girls i love them, there sexy, well most of them. ummm yea doing stuff its good too, along with girls.
Expertise: I don't have what they call Expertise. LOL, unless you count not knowing what my expertise would be.
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  MrBubbles04
Member Since:
7/10/2004
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| yet another year go by, yet another year wasted. Why does it feel like all i do is waste away and nothing ever happens in my life. hmmmm. Not much happened this year, yet another birthday oh big whoop, didn't even get anything. Summer, muh, didn't do much, sat around the house. All i've really done this year is go to school, and work a lot. Oh so much fun. This time last year i thought things were going to actually change, had a very big hopeful for a girl, hopeful on life, hopeful on a lot of things, and i sucked it up royally on all of it. What made a few new friends, who at times seemed to be annoyed with me. Old friends seem to be getting more distant, or something. It's just the same old stupid crap that goes on. I just need a change in something that is good. Yea that's going to happen very soon, i wish. Girl, screwed that up big time, almost had her and then started being stupid, gosh i wish that i could turn back time. I don't know what's wrong with me, if i won't let anyone get close to me or what, but it seems like no one wants to have the good converstations with me anymore. someone just needs to askt he hard question, and actually talk. But yea what ever, i just want to make a difference. I just want to see something happen. yea everyone says that i do things that are wonderful, and everything, but it just doesn't feel like they mean it or like i did anything at all. People just need to be real, or maybe i just need to be real. yea a lot of random thoughts i know, it all makes sense in my head. Really waht it boils down to is that i need to stop sucking at life, i don't have to be a jerk or mean or not nice, or not upbeat; it's just a struggle to not be those things. Well hopefully i can fill the girl department this year, if not who knows when that is going to happen. I hope that something actually happens this year, for once in my life.
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| - The Fight I feel like i abuse God's Grace sometimes. I don't know how to explain
it, i mean i was thinking about being a good christian and all and
looking at things and knowing that i fail at some things all the time,
and i always go back to God and ask him to forgive me and to help me, i
mean there are some things that God has helped me with esspecially in
the last like 3 weeks to stop and that's been awesome to know i'm free
of that. but there is still other things that just keep coming back and
keep coming back, and i want to stop but i just fail And i feel like i
just take God's Grace for granted, not that i purposely do those things
they just seem to happen, but it just doesn't seem right for me to keep
coming back and keep coming back, even though i know i should, i just
feel one time God's going to say no i guess. and that i just abuse what
wonderful grace He has for all of us. Alright i'm going to stop
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| You know what sucks the most...is missing someone so bad and not being able to do anything about it....that really sucks...when i was working tonight i started thinking about someone, and realized that i so miss someone so much and i really can't do anything about it. I really wish that i could see this person again, but that isn't possible for a long long long time. I can bet that most people can't guess who i am talking about so i'll just tell you it's my dad. I miss him so much, i've decided that once i graduate college that i'm going to go to his grave and talk to him. And ask questions that i'm pretty sure that i won't get answers too but that's alright, i know that need to ask them, just feel that it would be a good thing just to do, i know it will be a relieve off my chest. I wounder if my life would be more happy or less happy if my dad was still alive, or if my life would be the same at all if he was still here..just some other things like that...i miss him
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| where have all the fun times gone, all that goes on is watching t.v. and playing video games...i wish that they would just be how they used to be and not be so lazy....i don't know maybe that's why i've found new friends from school....but too bad they are all across the country now...suck.....and i don't have the money to go see any of them....i really hate this not doing anything and when some gets "done" it's not interesting at all...because in reality it is nothing....gezz i'm in a really foul mood right now....i really could go for a run or something...too bad it's too late at night....what am i supposed to do here God....you always work thing out, but again i'm the blind one not seeing where it is....i can't help but miss one person so much.....he was an awesome friend during school and now i don't get to see him for like a year and a half....what am i to do....i'm tired of childishness....i'm friken an adult what the crap....gosh i miss everyone | | |
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